Firmamentum

I don’t think I need to make this one formal. I’m writing this to you and I don’t even know why. There are some things that you can’t explain or understand. They are just there. This is one of those moments when I don’t know what I’m typing or what my brain is thinking it’s just my hands that are automatically pressing each key on their own and my heart which just has a picture of you in it. It’s been a tremendously good time since we’ve known each other and I have loved everything about that journey. I don’t know what happened to us but even now if someone asks “Who is she?” my only reply is “the closest thing I have to a girl-best-friend”. Because you are that special to me. I like to speak in facts and the fact is you were my first lady love ever and I continue to love you even to this very moment. I always say I remember each and every moment of my life. But there are some times when I let myself be, without the slightest care of my character, my behavior, my personality, what ot...

Funny, how destiny works. In a moment, you’re sitting there writing an exam Concentrating on the definite integration question And in the same moment, your hand goes under your desk And there you find a notebook, covered in brown paper Neat brown paper You look around, look at the invigilator who’s busy in his phone And open the notebook to find her name inscribed on the first page In beautiful handwriting “ Amishta Trivedi ” And the first thought that runs through your mind is a question Should I solve the integral? You choose otherwise and go on to flip the pages And there on all the pages is the same handwriting Poetry, Logs, Stories, Thoughts Anything that she thought, she scribbled it down there As if it was a part of her soul that she wanted to transfer in those pages And you start reading that stuff, written so profoundly. With each word, you fall for her even more You forget that you are actually in the middle of an examination And as yo...

There is a theory That when you die your whole life flashes right before your eyes I don't really understand how something so long can be flashed in mere seconds But it's not the life you think you lived  In your final moments what you see are people The people who cared It doesn't matter if you've ever met them or not I don't know if it was the last time I saw her But it was someone I felt connected to I've never met her I've never seen her But tell me to describe the face, and I can write poetry on it She was not like everyone else And when I was there lying on the ground Her eyes were stuck on me Not in sympathetic or romantic way Neutral Just lying there, looking at me And in that moment I felt a strange connection  A connection that you feel with the people you love And those silver locks of hair Like she was blessed by the thunder god himself That lock went from ...

In that never ending list of names I'd spent nights searching for yours I remember when you said that If I keep my hand on something I'll be a topper in that Maybe your prayers were answered There are now a million names in that list that I hold And all I look for is the letter '☐' I had imagined a future Together, for us A future where there would never even be shadow of sadness In this world of sad and empty hearts All I look for is a heart like yours I still think about where we went wrong I still think about what I did wrong But there is one thing I'm certain of In the fight against society WE lost And in this war of love and peace All I look for is a face resembling yours I don't know where time would take us Maybe we'll end up together Maybe we'll go along our paths  Not talking ever again And in this journey of life All I look for is a voice as sweet as yours I believe that the time we ...

"A girl with the handle name  Of ugly duckling  Came into my life once  Since then my life is full of happiness  Not in kilos but in tonnes " I think those lines resemble you...  But what do they mean?  I'm not a poet and I certainly don't plan to be one  But as every poet does... Those lines go way deeper than one can imagine  And I know you're bad at philosophy  And you don't like it even a bit  But these ones are important to describe those lines Love doesn't make sense! You can't logic your way into or out of it. Love is totally nonsensical. But we have to keep doing it or else we're lost and love is dead, and humanity should just pack it in. Because love is the best thing we do. And when you want someone to be around you... You don't just leave them as they are... You do something about it.  And we all know these online friendships doesn't last long... But still, I coul...

They were quite right when they said  2 years is all you have  Study in the time and you'll never regret  The choices you made, the story's end  But 2 years is a lot of time  Anything can happen in between  Like you can lock your eyes with hers' And there you feel a sudden connection  Like you've known the person for years  But how would I know?  Like you can reach her talk to her  And then you might realize  That the girl you just locked your eyes with  Actually shares the same fandom as you  But how would I know?  Like you can start talking with her every day  And maybe start walking to the coaching together  Sitting, studying, laughing, eating, all activities you can do together  But how would I know?  Like you can know that she's THE one and she'll be damn sure that you're THE one  And you both can be together forever  Holding hands, connect...

Sometimes, it's not anger Sometimes, it's not sorrow It's just people that you need People who listen People who care enough to advice People who don't exist Because these are people we're talking about They never care And they never listen Sometimes I wonder If we'll die one day because someone refused to listen to some important instruction And someday we all would be free of this world Maybe then we would realize how important it is to listen Sometime.

They say you don’t love me Because we don’t sit together They say you don’t love me Because we don’t talk to each other They say you don’t love me Because unlike others, we haven’t made it public They say you don’t love me Because you talk to other guys more than me They say you don’t love me Because you don’t look at me They say you don’t love me I don’t think you love me either I think you love the way we are Because I know we don’t sit together as you feel awkward Because I know we don’t talk to each other as you really need to study Because I know unlike others, we don’t need the world to know everything Because I know that whoever you talk to, in the end, you love me Because I know with tilted eyes your eyes always look out for one face in the classroom They say you don’t love me anymore And I always tell them I don’t care Because I know they’re not right Because I know that whatever happens, we will be here for each other always And ...

It’s easy falling in love with you And I did fell in love Just in the way you fall asleep Slowly and then all at once. I would like to tell you that these lines might be copied from movies. Every romantic line that I say in my life may be copied from some movie. This is because I enjoy them and understand the inner beauty of those masterpieces. But you. You are more than a masterpiece. I am in love with you Tweety and I can’t help it. I’ve tried to resist it but it was of no use. I’ve loved you since I can’t remember when and I would love you till I remember how to. And I can’t even tell you what changes you’ve brought up in my life. For the first time ever, I feel confident. Hell, I never thought I would ever be in a relationship let alone love and be loved by someone. Thank you for giving me the only unexpected thing in my life. I just want to let you know that I’m always there for you. I care for you a lot and I do every reasonable thing in my power to keep you happy alwa...

Where everyone’s story starts with a ‘Hey’, ours was different. It started with a vow of me not talking to you.Years would pass and I think I would still live up to that vow. I don’t think I would ever find someone as good as you. Maybe I don’t want to find someone else. I think it’s just a matter of time before I come back to my senses and start slaying people again but until then I’m vulnerable and I don’t know who to talk to or where to go. I have a love story and I love every part of it. And it’s just so that we don’t happen to be together anymore. No wonder it’s killing me from the inside and I don’t know about you but I can’t stop loving you for even a second of my life. Now you may have noticed me looking at you in between classes and I can’t stop doing that even if I wanted to. This is something I had been doing for the past 4 months and this has become a habit. I still remember each and everything about us. The time when I used to sit behind you because one of my friends wa...

I still remember that evening How can I forget something so beautiful? Even though it’s been years I’m still searching for you. I was returning from the tuition and you were there I still remember the place you stood by and asked me the question “Hey, can I ride your bicycle, it seems fun!” “Yeah, why not!” Hence our story begun. It was just a day Some mere hours that I’ve known you Yet it felt like you were the one And I was meant for you I was too young for those thoughts And they never slipped across my mind But now as I think of the evening I can see you be mine I came home and put my bag Told my mom I’ve got a new friend “What’s her name?” She asked me happily Confused by her name I called her ‘Deepawali’! She laughed and said,” Oh, it must be Dipali!” I said, “Yeah something like that”. I threw my bag and ran down the street, To play with her and ride with my queen. I reached the place She was circling around on my ...

Hey... This seems Tough. But here I am, after a lot of peer pressure, I've started this blog as an escape from the world. I think this might be a wonderful thing or a total disaster. I don't know, but I think this is a chance I'm willing to take. Who knows, maybe someday something magical happens!